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Sep 9, 2004
However Far Away I Will Always Love You

Blah......... No1 is down stairs and none of the tables are open and i couldn't be more irratable.  This heat is driving me insane and none of my teachers have the fucking brains to go out and  buy a fan for their gad dammed class room. O Sry brother Tom is going to get us a fan and that's about it...........  Isn't this school great??  The kids sucks and so do these computers.  we got an upgrade and yet the still run like they are 5 years old.  I always complain about skool......wut the hell else it there to talk about?? i have choir today......o wait that skool related.  But wutever I'm just so worn out and tired..  I'm sick of people already.  My paretns don't understand that i shuld just go to JHS.  I have friends there i have the best friensd in the whole world there.  Speeking of best friends in the whole entire world......I MISS MY DEMONIC RULER!!!!!  WHERE IS MY DEMONIC RULER OF DOOM????   WTF!!!!!!!!
He has been sick so he hasn't been online and i wanted to talk to him.  **meep**.  This skool need air conditioning we ned it more than we need an upgrade on our computers.  But god forbid we are fucking comfortable for once.........man these sinical assholes who run our skool love to see us suffer.  There is one air conditioner in the library........ BIG FUCKING DEAL WE NEED AC IN OUR CLASSROOMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  GRRRRR Retards..............   i am gonna go bye bye

Posted at 11:52 am by ZeppelingirlZ
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Sep 6, 2004
Breaking the habit........this is it i have changed

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again

[Bridge:]
I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

[Bridge:]
I dont want to be the one
The battles always choose
'Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Tonight

[Bridge:]
I'll paint it on the walls
'Cause I'm the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

[Chorus:]
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
to show you what I mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be alright
So, I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit
Iím breaking the habit
Tonight

- this all has to stop........i am a new person an if u got to no me then u see. 

Posted at 09:20 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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Love song and silver and cold

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you

Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again

However far away, I will always love you
However long I stay, I will always love you
Whatever words I say, I will always love you
I will always love you -  I dedicate this to all of my friends thank you so much guys (i mean this in a plutonic way)


I... I came here by day, but I left here in darkness
And found you, found you on the way
And now, it is silver and silent, it is silver and cold
You, in somber resplendence, I hold

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one

Light, like the flutter of wings, feel your hollow voice rushing into me
As you're longing to sing
So I... I will paint you in silver, I will wrap you in cold
I will lift up your voice as I sink

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me

Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn away
Cold in life's throws, I'll fall asleep for you
Cold in life's throws, I only ask you turn
As they seep... into me, oh, my beautiful one, now

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me)
Your sins into me... oh

Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one, now
Your sins into me
As a rapturous voice escapes, I will tremble a prayer
And I'll beg for forgiveness
(Your sins into me) Your sins into...
(Your sins into me) Your sins into me
Oh, my beautiful one


Posted at 09:09 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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Sep 2, 2004
Is there anybody listening?

I'm in skool an i have like 20 mins for lunch.  I'm wicked tired an i just feel very blah..... I wish i could go to JHS but my mom just won't let me.  I have to get out of here.  There is something that just isn't right about how i feel.  I can already feel the change take place it's soo weird.  I'm not the same person i wuz.....even a few days ago.....i can kinda almost feel the misoury comming over me.  It just feels so strsnge an unnatural for me to b back in skool..... I miss pete more and more everyday. I no he doesn't like me anymore an i'm wicked happy we r friends,he's an awesome kid but i dunno i have to go to my locked so i g2g bye bye

Posted at 11:22 am by ZeppelingirlZ
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Aug 29, 2004
Don't waste you time on me your already the voice inside my head, I miss you

Over the past few days i have been really thinking about my time in high school.......i have done a lot of not so good stuff but then again i have bcome half of the person i have always wanted to be. aI really miss some of the seniors i used to talk to sumtimes.  I miss the kid i liked even though i really shuldn't.  He was so mean to me an i mean i didn't do nething to help that but it dosn't matter.  I mean i was over bearing an i did talk to him a lot and i just culdn't accept that he had a g/f i mean i do now but i wuz sooo immature.  I'm growing up now an i am happy for that but my past just eats me alive.  I haunts me everyday all the shit i have done to get me into trouble all the things that have crossed my mind......o god the things that have crossd my mind.  I have though about just the most horrible things.......it's kinda hard not to say i'm a psycho...i don't want to be one it's just it always kinda come out and it hurts a lot.  I have tried therapy and it worked but i just culdn't get that demon outta me......there wuz just one thing i culdn't get id of.  I never spoke if it bcuz i didn't no how to.....  i didn't want to end up in butler or like a mental institution.  God i gotta get rid of this it's like a sickness that no matter how hard i try to repress it no matter how hard i  try to hide it....it always comes up..  am gonna let it all go...... i keep having these thoughts of how bad wuld shit really hit the fan if i did this or like how creepy wuld it b if i said this how much crap wuld i get into if i did this..  Once i thought wut if sum1 i knew got their nipples pieced an i went over to them one random day that they talked abo0ut their piercing an shoved a dollar down their shirt......wuld they ever talk to me again.. once i got yelled at by my boss an i thought...wow wut if i wuz dumb enough and ungreatfull enough and rude enough to call her a bitch even though i deserved to get yelled at.  Wut wuld she say? wut wuld she do? how wuld she talk to me afterwards?  Once i thought to myself that wut if i did sumthin so bad that i got fired from work? How wuld my co workers treat me? How wuld my dad treat me? Then one time i thought when i wuz out with my friends wut if i were really just using them?? how much of an asshole thing is that to do? I culd never do that to them though...i can't live without ant....even if i just get to talk to him online. and cherish an melissa and barry too god i just spill my guts to these people where wuld i b without them??  How much more different wuld my life be if i didn't go to saint thomas?? What if i didn't learn all those lessons and learn all that stuff?? How many friends wuld i really have?? Wuld i be dead?? ok well i ahve to go outside now but i will write more later.........bye bye

Posted at 01:05 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
 

Aug 8, 2004
Discomfort Endlessly has pulled itsself upon me..........

The past few weeks have been ok.  The workshop i went to wuz ok an i learned a few new things but it wuz only about a certain few.........that really pissed me off it wuz just like saints.. And it felt like people were laughin at me too...... But ne way......i have been seeing a lot of anthony lately an melissa an cherish an i like it lol......but imiss seein jeff an barry an kim an crystal..........BLAH!!!! But i have like 2 more weeks at work an my bank account is fuckin shot..... but i have been having a great summer i might b goin to a concert on thursday...yes me an my concerts........i love em wut can i say lol.    I have to have as much fun as possible before skool starts an i really wanna have fun lol ......like u have no idea i am gonna get killed bcuz i haven't even started summer reading....ooopsss...**gag** **gag**......but yea i really don't wanna go back........the only thing i wanna see is the year book.....i dunno y though..........i do sumtimes get those nostalgic feeling though....about when i just started comming to saints an how warm the sun was an how the smell of the football players sweat haunted the hallways of the lockerrooms even when we were gettin ready for gala lol........mind u gala starts in april lol........the smell stays there all year...it's really gross u get the picture.........but yea.....i really liked the beginning of freshmen year......just the beginning though.  but ne way.... i don't wanna go back......but i have like 3 more weeks so i am happy an in those 3 weeks i am gonna pack it with as much fun stuff as i possibly can...so yea i am gonna go.........bye bye

Posted at 10:28 am by ZeppelingirlZ
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Aug 4, 2004
Maybe this Time....I'll Win??

No I'm not ok
Are you crazy?
Did you see the look on my face?
Could you feel the pain spilling from my heart?
I was right there
How could they say something like that?
Who the fuck are they to lable me and judge me??
They don't know who i really am
I don't want them to
I just wanna sing to the stars an moon
i wanna put people in awe
My god sumtimes it's sooooo cold an lonely an cold......i will add more later but i am tired so i shall go to sleep!!!!!!! BLAH!!!

Posted at 10:53 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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Jul 25, 2004
I stole this from you katie

My dearest friend if you don't mind
I'd like to join you by your side
Where we can gaze into the stars
And sit together now and forever
For it's as plain as anyone can see
We're simply meant to be ~Jack and Sally

i love this quote it's sooo cute....thanx katie!!!

Posted at 03:25 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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Jul 24, 2004
Cause i'm broken when i'm lonesome and i don't feel right........

Ok so the past week has been pretty descent.  I went to 2 concerts an out with my friends....a lot ....i love goin out an stuff it is sooo much fun i wanna just do it over an over an over.... i got a piar of chucks cuz i lost both of my shoes at a concert i went to........both of them.......yea u guessed it....i wuz moshing......o an crowd serfing...thanx cameron........thanx a lot......no but seriously dude if u ever read this really thanx cuz i got a new pair of chucks out of  it...but ne way.....i am gonna get goin cuz i am really kinda itchin to watch a movie so i'm outtie...later

Posted at 10:05 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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Jul 17, 2004
Acting stupid can't control with my best friends........

Last night i had a great time...... I went to the movies with my friends Anthony Melissa an Cherish an we went to see Spiderman 2.....Good Movie.  An then after the movie we went to get sumthin to eat an then we all went home.....doesn't seem like much but still i got outta the house an i wuz with my friends.  o an b4 all that i went to the gym an i went to a spinning class...that is where u stay on a bike for like an hour an u just keep pedaling an pedaling to music.  An i had fun an i tried to keep up but it wuz kinda hard but it wuz fun.  An now my ass hurts like whoa......but i had a great time.....thanx guys!!!!!!!! An jeff we have to chill sumtime soon!!!!

Posted at 12:08 pm by ZeppelingirlZ
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